Milky Miyazawa

silent_distain @ 2007-05-28T15:58:00

2007-05-28T23:49:04Z

w00t. summer "vacation".

my first full time job starts tomorrow. i'm grateful to have it, and excited to be making money that i can stuff into my savings account. but. meh.

i shouldnt complain, so i'll stop there.

my plans for my next academic year do not anywhere include San Francisco State. that's right;; i'm LEAVING. peh! good bye San Francisco, i loved you for a while but the rest of the bay area is so much prettier and for the most part far more sane.

next semester : a very, very brief return to junior college so that i can finish up those requirements for Berkeley. fingers crossed; maybe they'll bat an eyelash at my application.

but in the meanwhile!
after finishing those few units that i need to technically get into Berkeley, i'm planning on getting out of here for the spring. although i'm intensely frightened, i'm nearly committed to going to a foreign university.

any, either of these for this moment may include :

South Korea with SIT.
SIT is another section of programs run by the same people who took me to Brasil. The thing I love about SIT is that it's a very grown up program. Participants are expected not to just sit around at a foreign university and play student. No, they're expected to do far more. Aside from just running language courses and cultural seminars at a University, the program is actually a full, hands on field study for undergrads. Particpants are expected to fully study issues relevant to East Asian relations and how Korean identity works into that; anthropologically speaking and probably otherwise. So therefore, a possible stay in Korean migrant communities within either Japan or China is included.

Aside from the fact that there has to be at least one nuke aimed and ready for South Korea at all times, it sounds like a pretty enriching program. And I'll get to speak Japanese! XP

Kenya with SIT.
Obviously another SIT program, and this time in Africa. I think I'd rather go to Kenya than any other African nation because, well, I won't be the only Euro-head there! There are some international students that I've met from Kenya and they're white as snow, so the more diversity the better. I wont' feel as ostracized. I havent read everything about this program yet, but it has a purpose; which makes it ideal enough for me. Learning about health programs in Africa sounds alot more worth my time than getting drunk with Americans in San Francisco. Let's just hope I don't have to get on any of those mind cracker malaria pills again, if i go (>.<)

Victoria University of Wellington with IFSA Butler University
IFSA-Butler seems to have alot of interesting programs. None of them are as purpose-driven as SIT's, but they basically get students into a new country and still working toward their degrees. Good stuff. This particular program is in New Zealand- they have quite a few there, but out of all the NZ ones this one appealed to me most. I'll have to look into it more, though~ but for now it's definitely a possibility. And! They teach Japanese.

University of Warwick with IFSA-Butler University
Another IFSA-Butler program. Definitely enticing to me because they run on the seminar/tutorial system that I lust after. Anyone who is familiar with St Mary's Integral Program should know that their program is based around this system, as is St Johns College's entire voluptuous curriculum. Yum. Not to mention Mr. Boyfriend has been to Coventry, which is the town this University is in/near, and he has had nothing but great reviews. Away from the expensive hustle and bustle of London, yet still in the UK. And, they teach Japanese. This program is very Min compatible.

Just a peek into a few of the programs I'm looking to. Either way, I've gotta get moving on a decision~ deadlines are gonna be in a few months and I've gotta be gathering up resources ^^;

silent_distain @ 2007-04-16T22:10:00

2007-04-17T05:11:43Z

I really don't think 16 units + part time job should be getting me down this much.

At the moment, every breath of mine is dedicated to :
*School work.
*Work.
*Worrying about future.
*Parents.
*Boyfriend.

.... I don't know what my hobbies are anymore. I'm always stressing about being on time for things. I have way too much shit to do and I can never relax. When I do, I feel like I'm doing something wrong; like, if I spend a few hours messing around downtown I feel guilty because those hours were not spent doing homework or trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do with my life at this point.

To be entirely blunt I feel perpetually empty and every little thing makes me want to cry.

Min learns to derive the Quadratic Function.

2007-03-01T10:44:07Z

Hellz yeah man.

I need to sleep.

CULINARY TRIUMPH.

2007-02-27T05:11:02Z

I like cooking ^-^
And I made some reeaaaaaaally damn good salmon.

YES.

silent_distain @ 2007-02-20T19:00:00

2007-02-21T02:59:45Z

I dont want to write another essay.

silent_distain @ 2007-02-14T00:03:00

2007-02-14T08:02:24Z

silent_distain @ 2006-11-29T01:44:00

2006-11-29T08:44:15Z

Behold! The procrastinatory might of Le Min.

15 page paper due tomorrow, I havent even started.

Must be getting some sleep soon, seeing as I departed my studies with the excuse of fatigue nearly an hour ago.

Dear Semester,
Min Min wishes for you to be over.

.... And now I go to bed.

I WANNA GIVE YOU MY LOVE

2006-09-18T04:31:24Z

Life is beautiful.

(*^0^)><3

silent_distain @ 2006-09-06T00:12:00

2006-09-06T07:35:50Z

I haven't updated in a while, so I thought I'd take a shot at a semi-reflective entry.

One year anniversary is in seven days. To be totally honest, the quality of it all still amazes me. He's truely my best friend ^-^ However, I'm still incredibly shy about the subject~ so I'll digress ^^;

It's freezing in San Francisco. Or at least the crappy little section of it that I've bound myself to for at least another semester. It's rediculous how one could travel just a few minutes out of this area, and the weather will be a gazillion times nicer. Like;; sunny and mild. Very nice. Not repetitively grey, cold, wet, depressing. Everything else seems to be going quite well, though. My apartment is warm and nice. My roommates are absolutely wonderful so far. The classes are engaging and insightful, even if I haven't quite yet managed to get all of the units I planned on getting. Because of this, I may have to postpone studying in Japan once again. This may be for the best, however~ because I don't have nearly as much money as I want saved up for it yet. My plan is to go to Japan with only a few pairs of clothes, then just go SHOPPING for EVERYTHING. Yup. That would be very nice.

And speaking of nice;; this weekend shall mark my very first voyage out on the high seas! You heard it! Sea shanties and pirate hats galore, right off the crystalline San Francisco bay! The Captain of the Mighty Vessel has already granted me express rights to Co-Captain-ship ^-^ I'm very excited!

But all of this excitement is going to have to wait;; because Miss Min Min is muchly in need of some sleep.

silent_distain @ 2006-05-02T12:18:00

2006-05-02T19:19:16Z

Cats are horrid things when one considers how insincere they are.
Why is it that humans are so deeply in love with these devious things?

You see,
Nicky's kitty fell asleep on my head~ ^-^
It made me feel very special for a moment.
But when I consider it in a bit more detail,
the cat was merely using my face as a pillow.
So endearing how he uses me, right?
I'm confident, though!
One of these days, kitty and I will be good friends.

~

At least out loud, I won't say I'm in...

2005-08-25T19:34:32Z

I'm such a flaming loser. Haha ^_^; I finished my Japanese class this morning, and now I have NOTHING to do for the rest of the day. I desperately want to go shopping in J-town (it's just a short bus ride away! XD!) but I have no one to go WITH! @_@ It sucks knowing that there's so much cool stuff to do within my reach, but I can't go because I'm a loner. MEH! Not to mention I'm going to be totally ALONE this weekend, because my roomie is going back home for the weekend. ( she's so lucky! (._.)! ) I hate sitting in this prison by myself... but I really won't go off campus, and if I do, I might just go down the street to the mall.

I don't know. Granted, I've met quite a few interesting people. But no one I can actually rely on yet ~_~ It's like starting high school all over again.

Haha! It's hilarious ^^; I'm getting people second guessing my nationality again. It's so entertaining!

Oooh;; and Jess, you've gotta see this~ XD!

We were talking about animals and eye surgeries and what-not last night, and guess what came up.

Sorry it's kinda blurry ^^; They made that for me after our bunny experiment came up. It was hilarious! The bottom says, "This notice paid for by the Society for the Protection Of Non-Aquatic Bunnies".

Anyways, since I have nothing else do do, I took a few random pics of my dorm

My side of the room~ My bed is a mess right now ^^;

The view from my window. It's exceptionally clear and bright outside today! *^_^*!

WEE! And it was so awesome! Last night we went on an adventure~ and my roomie bought me a Ben and Jerry's ice cream bar! XD! She's the best! She even knew which one to get me~ Half Baked, with cookie dough in it ^_~* Then I nearly lost my voice last night from screaming and yelling and stuff. It was alot fun. We also watched Sin City~ it was *alright*. I liked how they filmed it, but violence became exceedingly gratuitous-- meaning most of it was pointless as ever. Bruce Willis is fantastic.

-- edit ::

You scored as Shy. You are shy, cute...but shy. There are a lot of people that find you attractive but you just aren't sure what to do.

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Shy

88%

Soft

69%

Exciting

56%

Sweet

44%

Violent

44%

Hot

44%

Wet

31%

Awkward

13%

What is your sexual style?
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You scored as Hope. Hope- with you are the dreams of the trust that is given by those you are with.

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Hope

71%

Fortitude

68%

Justice

57%

Prudence

54%

Charity

54%

Faith

50%

Temperance

39%

The Seven Heavenly Virtues
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silent_distain @ 2005-08-23T01:27:00

2005-08-23T08:31:53Z

DUDE. TM Revolution ROCKS.

I just got iTunes onto my laptop, so now I can listen to Izumi's music on here. It's so fantastic! I haven't heard this song in forever, but now I'm listening to it, and I'm so happy! XD! Not to mention today was a very interesting day. My roomie and I went on like... 4 adventures, and figured out how to get to the mall via the Muni system. We bought the Sonic Mega Collection and some new PS2 controllers ^_~* And we also had some other groovy cats over to watch Constantine. It's an alright movie~~ I love the visuals, but I was too busy laughing at crapstastic acting to actually understand most of the plot.

Ooh! And Enriri says he's probably going to take a bus up here to see me ^^; I dunno how I feel about that. But we'll see ^_^ I can't wait to see peoples again!

Anyways, it's super late, and I still need to go potty @_@ Mrow.

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Take the quiz.
Post your results.
1) Is elf_shadow athletic? No idea ^^;
2) Where did you first meet yami_no_kitsune? On VAA?
3) Are kitty_love_yaoi and sharaku_sinner going out? I doubt that's plausible @_@
4) crimchrry's eye color? Brown, but I'm sure he'd love to alternate it.
5) Is lmikia a high school student? Yup! HAHA!
6) Where was celena_chan born? In the United States! ^^
7) What song/movie would you recommend to elf_shadow? Pygmalion. Just cause it's cool.
8) What video game does sharaku_sinner remind you of? Hmm... Castlevania, maybe?
9) What would xmindless_punkx think of sittolytic? Interesting...
10) If sharaku_sinner had a superpower, what would it be? Non-regenerating pubic hair, maybe? o_O?
11) Does celena_chan have a dog? I think so~
12) What color should elf_shadow dye their hair? Maybe;; not sure.
13) One thing you can't stand about crimchrry? He has a crazy ability to unknowingly toy with my emotions @_@
14) How long have you known mikiko? Mebbe about 2 years now ^_^
15) Is fumie related to elf_shadow? No way.
16) Are mikiko and lmikia going steady? Hell yes!! They've been together since birth, actually.
17) Which president would serephina_belli be likely to idolize? Ionno @_@
18) Do you think crimchrry is hot? In his own little way, maybe. He's way too awesome for me, though ^^;
19) What would mikiko do differently in your shoes? She'd probably convert them all into light-up platforms.
20) Have you flirted with sittolytic? Nope ^_^ I think he's in a pretty solid relationship. I couldn't do that.
21) Is crimchrry a college student? Not yet.
22) How many monkeys could fumie fight at once and win against? None! She still hasn't taken Power Rangers lessons from me yet. Duh.
23) If serephina_belli were hanging off a cliff, what would faeryhime do? Laugh! XD! Nooo;; I dunno.
24) If xmindless_punkx commanded an army, who would be his/her followers? ME! And maybe a bunch of obsessive weirdos.
25) If mizura and lmikia were spliced together, what would it be like? Super Asian power, with a little bit of glam and frequent mood swings mixed in.

And if I'm flying solo, at least I'm flying free.

2005-08-22T16:47:15Z

^_^; Well, I've officially moved in. It's so lonely up here!! Somebody needs to come visit me already!! There's a hip cool mall in walking distance from here, and the weather is... foggy @_@ So come see me! You know you want to!

Anyways, the dorms are alot nicer than I thought, and THANK HEAVENS I have a pretty hip roomate. I still have to figure out how to get the damned cable to work, though. It's making me mad~ I'm missing the Doodlebops and I KNOW it. Grr! i_i Hopefully I'll be able to figure it out eventually. Oh, and you wont believe how awesome the Borders is here! Yanno how in Fresno there's like only three panel thingies of manga? Here, they have like THREE ISLES full of manga. It's awesome! I never even knew half of these translated titles existed!

But yeah. I'm so flippin lonely @_@ haha. I miss everyone so much! Living here is going to take *alot* to get used to. I really need to take a shower;; but the showers here are flipping weird. It's like a cubby in a wall with a flimsy plastic curtain covering it. Which is fine, I guess-- but it feels like I'm at kiddy camp, yanno? And I probably can't take my clothes into the bathroom without getting them dirty/wet, so I might have to walk around in a towel @_@ Which is something I'm not necessarily used to either. But whatever. I only have to live here for a year ((I hope!)).

Meh. I think I'm going to get on some clothes and go find something to do. Pocky for breakfast! XD!

silent_distain @ 2005-08-21T00:24:00

2005-08-21T07:32:34Z

Life in a nutshell;;

My mom's birthday is on the 24th, so we went with group of hip kewel relatives to Universal Studios. It was AWESOME fun!! I even got a picture with Spiderman ((who had an insatiably hawt personality, btw ^^; yes, we conversed for about 10 seconds)). Then today they threw her a surprise birthday party! My family, of course, gave me their best wishes and goodbyes~ And one of my cousins was super kind enough to go out and buy me a whole grip of really neat stuff for college *^_^* Enrique also came by tonight to drop off some stuff and shower me in hugs and kisses~ ^^; Yay! And so, tomorrow I depart for San Francisco. W00t.

Jessica~ I have a pile of stuff for you at home. I'll leave it with my brother or something, so come by and get it anytime ^_^ I'll also have Sheiky's hat waiting for you. Just pay my mom whatever Sheiky gave you~ and she'll get it to me.

So yeah ^_^ Take care, everyone! ((Especially you, Enriri! *^o^*!))

"You know, you're the most emotionally unstable girl I've ever met." --Fred Astaire

2005-08-16T07:34:20Z

FINALLY finished.

Inspired by Sheiky's design~ The pictures don't really show it off too well. I spent all damned day working on it, and a whole lot of fabric. It has fluffy ears, a tail, clawed paws, and the little skull symbol on one paw. I couldn't decide on a mouth that looked good with it, so I left it off ^^; Sheiky, if you want one I can make you one ^_^ Bottom price, $7~

And so this entry isn't entirely advertisement;; my past few days have been pretty good ^_^ Quite productive. I spent all last night and early morning finishing up a poster for my aunt's new classroom. It didn't come out as I wanted it to, but whatever @_@ If I had more time, it probably would have looked decent. Meh meh. But I hear they were satisfied with it~ and I made the Monday morning deadline! So that makes me happy *^_^*

Mi-chan and I went shopping in the Tower District! The prices really weren't as bad as I thought they were going to be~ All in all, I bought an Edward Scissorhands poster for my dorm, a Bowie pin, a deck of Archangel oracle cards, and a Bowie shirt *^_^* We found the shirts on sale for super cheap~ and they were so rad that we *had* to get them matching! I'm so proud of them. I also had the best cup of boba I've ever had in my life. Oreo Snow something at the Boba Cabana~ SUPER good. Then I had an awesomely HUGE dinner and an insane amount of mochi ice cream ^^; Needless to say, Bowie expanded a few inches by the time we got home. But I *definitely* had a blast, and I'm very, very glad that we went. (Thank you, Miki!! XD!)

Then, this morning I woke up just in time to watch the Doodlebops! XD!! ((But that's what ropes are for! XD!!!)) After that, I watched a grip of Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers films while sewing. Aside from the splitting backache that's built up from slouching over fabric ALL day, I've had alot of fun ^_^ Now tomorrow, I think my cousin is coming over~ and I'm going to take her to buy fabric for a strawberry hat she wants me to make for her. She's such a sweetheart! I really didn't think my family paid too much mind to my going off to college~ but she says she wants to spend time with me before I go ^^ Makes me feel all loved and stuff. And my grandfather gave me a hug today too *^_^* He's my favorite!

I'm really, really craving orange juice. I need a juice box.

silent_distain @ 2005-08-13T10:47:00

2005-08-13T17:48:13Z

Tare Panda hat
DeviBat hat

Sesion Citore begins. XD!

silent_distain @ 2005-08-12T12:56:00

2005-08-12T20:08:15Z

YAY! Someone finally gave me an idea for a hat! XD! And I finished my draft version of it within an hour or so. Yay for me!

I think what I'm going to start doing is just churning out a bunch of custom or cosplay-inspired hats and try selling them all over the place. I really, really need le monies T_T

Anyways, here's the draft version of the first hat I finished. Here was the idea picture~~

And here's my draft of the finished product. ((draft meaning the little strings aren't cleaned up, the face isn't totally precise, and i haven't taken in the very bottom if it yet))

I think I'll probably make two more and try selling them on Ebay or something. $7 is my bottom price. -nodnod- And when compared to places like GenkiGang, that's pretty damn good. I remember the first cosplay hat I got from them cost me $40 ~_~

Edit~~;;

Stolen from a purple_delusion someone ^^; No, I don't stalk people regularly~ I just noticed they had a Robert Smith icon and I wanted to see if the rest of their layout was pretty too ^_^ Which it was. ANYWAYS. I ganked this survey while I was at it.

[?]I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[x] I am for Bush.
[ ] I listen to political music. (i listen to political talk radio. does that count?)
[x] I collect comic books. (Manga junkie~ XD!)
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod
[x] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x ] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation. (in my head)
[ ] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 7 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I eat fast food weekly
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[XXX!!]I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games/video games.
[x] Enjoy being single
[x] Been in an relationship
[x] Gotten lost in your city
[x] Saw a shooting star
[x] Been to any other countries besides the united states
[ ] I Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ]I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[ ]Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose (how about orange juice? ^^;)
[ ] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[x] Been close to love
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[x] Done a split
[x] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x]Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[x] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[x] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardi gras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[x] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been Skiing
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[x] Gone to college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[x] Miss someone right now
[x] had your heart broken
[x] been grounded
[ ] smoked pot
[x] are in love right now

I'm so happy *^_^* I've already sold a hat! YAY! I'm one step closer to that pwetty bass guitar.

silent_distain @ 2005-08-11T13:07:00

2005-08-11T20:29:11Z

Alright. I'm getting ready to move out to college ^^; And as most of you already know, I'm trying like hell to get a bass guitar before I leave. This constitutes trying to find quick and simple ways to make money~ including.... selling my anime. O_O!

First off, my manga collection. I'm only selling the titles I don't read anymore. Keep in mind that I've always handled my stuff with EXCELLENT care, and that all of my anime/manga is in great condition.
Now, I don't really expect too many local people to even care about my stuff~ but. Yeah. If you live somewhere within my vicinity, I won't charge a cent for shipping~ because obviously I can find a way to get it to you personally.

Manga::
All manga will be priced at $6 a volume~ ((unless you think that's crazy;; in which case I'll consider bartering))

MARS by Fuyumi Soryo
~~ Volume 1
~~ Volume 6
~~ Volume 7
~~ Volume 9
~~ Volume 10

Kill Me, Kiss Me by Lee Young Yuu
~~ Volume 1
~~ Volume 2

Princess Ai by Kujiradou/Love/Milky
~~ Volume 1

Model by Lee So-Young
~~ Volume 1
~~ Volume 2
~~ Volume 3
~~ Volume 4

Anime ::

All VHS will be priced at $12, and DVDs at $15

Ceres Celestial Legend (Ayashi no Ceres) *U.S. released VHS, dubbed*
1. Destiny~ Episodes 1-3
2. Past Unfound~ Episodes 4-6
3. C-Genome~ Episodes 7-9

Samurai X : The Rurouni Kenshin Motion Picture *U.S. released DVD*

If I don't manage to sell this stuff on LJ, I'll probably resort to Ebay. Hmm. And I'll probably be designing some hats and kitty ear hair clips later. If anyone has any ideas, I'd gladly accept them ^_^ Thanks!

silent_distain @ 2005-08-07T00:50:00

2005-08-07T07:50:08Z

Alright, I'm confused. I'm barely coming to terms with something here.

Honestly. I think I'm starting to develop some sort of a paranoia about being stalked/preyed upon/ect. I know this sounds stupid, but there have been several instances in my lifetime where I've been stalked by total, complete assholes. And I don't mean that in an incredibly light-hearted context.

Now, I wasn't necessarily "stalked" tonight, nor did I necessarily feel like I was being. But yeah. I was somewhere tonight-- nowhere sketchy, just an event-- and some totally random guy decides to take an interest in me. Whatever, fuck him, I don't care, right? I barely even talked to him. I wasn't hanging out with him-- he was just inevitably seated next to me at the table. After a while, he tried to make very light conversation-- trying to figure out where I went to school, where I was from, where I was going. I complied, entering a few white lies into the convo where I possibly could without feeling too guilty. Then most of the night I was wandering around, talking to other people-- though sometimes, I'd notice that this guy would pop up in random locations, looking at me. That creeps me out. Then later on, I just decide to go by the lake. Granted, the event I was at was placed right next to the lake, but nevertheless this guy ends up out there coincidentally at the time I was. He comes and talks to me some more.

Finally, it gets to the point to where he asks me my age. At this point, I'm like, FUCK. I've been trying to avoid this guy, but even then I've already mentioned that I'm heading off to college-- and from that alone he'd know that I was lying if I told him I was 16. So, he guesses that I'm 18, and I can't lie. Then this stupid fucking smile comes over his face.

Fuck fuck FUCK fuck fuck. Yanno? The last time this happened to me was at an anime convention.

Anyways, this guy proceeds onto the "You're the most beautiful woman I've ever seen" bullshit. I tell him "hell no, I don't believe that shit now shut the hell up", so he leaves, and then I go to sit by an older guy that I know will take care of me if I need it. FUCK.

I hate not being a minor anymore. Then, I was under the protection of child safety laws and all those wonderful, beautiful things. But now, creeps like this tiny, inconspicuous, stupid, ugly little asian guy seem to like the idea of being able to take advantage of my fucking vulnerabilities. Am I overdoing this?

Of course, I feel a slight bit of pity for the guy. He was sitting all lonely at the table looking really down and depressed afterwards. But fuck him. I feel no pity. I mean, he didn't even seem like a mean guy. But I hate, hate, HATE when guys try to come on to me. I hate it so fucking much.

And it's instances like this that reinforce the only real reason for why I'm anxious about 'dressing up' or 'attracting attention' in San Francisco. I know there are a billion and ten more creeps there, and I have no one there to defend me from them. But whatever. I know I'll end up looking different somehow.

Speaking of which, I've been buying lots of new, adorable stuff for college ^^; Haha. No, this isn't a mood swing. I guess the point to all this is that inevitably I'm going to have to find a better way to fend for myself, because I'm always going to end up finding a way to look slightly different. It just happens. Anyways, for anyone in triplef or Kera_Love, I have my stuff posted. Yay.

Hmm... Something just dawned on me. That same "older guy" I went to when tonight's hyperactive asian dickwad was bugging me was the same exact guy I went to the last time I was being stalked by a hyperactive asian dickwad. o_O; What an odd coincidence. Haha. It just so happens that he's around when this shit happens. How ironic. But whatever. I don't give a shit.

silent_distain @ 2005-08-04T13:00:00

2005-08-04T20:17:09Z

DUDE. Is anyone else planning on going to Jrock Connection?

I just found out about it. It sounds like it's going to be super small, but it's only a train ride from SF and bands are gonna be there. w00t. I'm certainly thinking about it.

My rationalization tells me that smaller VK bands would be easier to bring to the U.S. I could be totally wrong, but hell. If someone got Deadman to come to the Bay Area... *.* I know what I'd do. I'd probably collapse and cry like a flippin idiot, just like I did for PLC @_@ Meeeh. But after I got my shit together, I'd probably sneak into Mako's hotel room and ~~do him dirty~~ give him a present. XD!

Besides, I'm learning Japanese for a reason. Aside from business trips, I seriously want to be able to go to Japan to see live shows. That would be the best.

Alright, I'll stop acting like a stupid annoying fangirl now >.>

silent_distain @ 2005-08-03T16:21:00

2005-08-03T23:23:48Z

Fourteen bucks says she's pregnant.

@_@ Stupid predictable manga.

----

Alright, I was wrong. Pfft. Ten points for the mangaka for being 2% less predictable than she was in the rest of the manga ^^;

I've spent a huge grip of time reading Akuma de Sourou, and all I really get out of it is a mix of MARS and Marmalade Boy. It was entertaning at the very least, and the art really improved as the manga proceeded. Basically what happens is, it starts off with a love triangle. The sweet, innocent female tries to confess her love to the object of her affection (Kamijo) via letter. However, she makes a mistake and gives it to the wrong person! That person (Takeru) then continues to humiliate her, until eventually they become close, and then when Kamijo admits he always liked her, he is then flatly rejected because now she likes the Takeru-- who is a bad ass, straight-talkin meanie, who can fight really well and has crazy friends. The only problem is, her mom is going to marry the Takeru's father! Typical shoujo scenarios follow-- a ruined arranged marriage, a threat to the family name, the random loner stalking the female and trying to sabotage their relationship, ect ect. The ending was nice, though ^_^

Anyways;; I have an opportunity to go to Disneyland again tomorrow, but I'm not sure that I will. My dad and brothers are going~ And while I would really, *really* love to go with them, the fact that all the computers and game consoles are going to be UNOCCUPIED for the first time in years is kind of tempting me to stay ^^; We'll see.

~ I have found that I am in love with the idea of being in love.
~ 'Your Song' by Elton John WILL be the song to epitomize whomever I fall in love with. For some reason, that song really, really touches me.
~ I've been reading too much shoujo manga lately.
~ I have a persistant writer's block.
~ I'm moving in about two weeks.
~ I've been wanting to be an archaeologist ever since I was in kindergarten. Perhap's it's my calling. Haha.
~ I think that I will customize a skirt out of old t-shirts.

silent_distain @ 2005-07-30T22:48:00

2005-07-31T05:55:04Z

A few quick updates in the life of le Min.

I just got back from my super lovely Disneyland vacation! I had an awesomely fun time. There was a bit of tension involved, though~ My super stupid ((but somehow incredibly lovable)) cousin wouldn't shut up with his damn complaining, racial slandering, womanizing shitheaded comments, and gay bashing. He's very, very fun to hang out with for a while~ but not the type of guy I could amiably deal with for over 24 hours straight. Then, of course, alot of people complaining about crowding, tourists, and the heat~ I think I fared very well though, especially considering that I don't warm up well to excessive whining ^^; But with those few bumps aside, I had a fantastic time. I think my ultimate highlights were being able to hang out and laugh with Jess again, and discussing the politics of Power Rangers with my 5-year-old cousin *^_^* Then, of course, I caught the genetic obsession with D-land. I could stay there for months and do absolutely *nothing* without becoming bored or tired of the place. I'm also an official Annual Pass holder now! YAY! XD!

On the downside, though;; I had my heart broken today. I took back my Willy Wonka knock-off coat that I bought at Hot Topic. I'm so flippin in love with that jacket~~ but... yeah... (T_T) I'm afraid that wearing it at SFSU will draw a bit more attention to myself than I'm going to want my freshman year. That being said~ $70 is way too much to spend on a lovely jacket that I'm probably not going to wear for a while. Instead I exchanged it for 3 shirts and a little black/blue jacket. I'll probably post pictures later..... even though I'm still on the verge of tears @_@

.... I miss my jacket.... (._.)

I also found out my dorm assignment and who my roomate is probably going to be. I think that I'm quite nervous about it. Not about moving away and all that-- but meeting the person I'm going to be stuck living with. I really, really hope that she isn't a polar opposite. But we'll see. Oh~ and for anyone who thinks they might want my dorm phone number/address, gimme a call on my cell.

Anyways;; I need to go take a shower and what-not. Tchau.

silent_distain @ 2005-07-20T21:56:00

2005-07-21T04:58:53Z

Energetic. Colorful. Talented. You are Miyavi.

Which J-rocker are you?
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Hehe. If you say so @_@

silent_distain @ 2005-07-19T17:36:00

2005-07-20T01:09:58Z

Life is beautiful, and I am SPOILED rotten. What else can I say?

I expected a tremendous amount from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory-- and even after seeing it three times already, I can still say that it is phenomenally more than I could have ever imagined. And, of course~ after seeing how insanely and eternally in love I am with this movie, my closest friends and family decided to spoil me rotten ^^; On the first day of watching Choko Factory, Enriri surprised me at the mall and bought me THIS. Then, on the second day~ Miki spoiled me by giving me a pwetty Burton-loving Jack Skellington accessory, some Japanese bandaids, and COOKIES!! ^.^ Then, right after our super hyper fun outing, I come home to see that my mom has bought me PRESENTS! XD! She gave me a stylish little Choko Factory t-shirt, a Choko Factory keychain for my dorm keys, a Choko Factory coffee mug for my dorm, and the Choko Factory PILLOWCASE I had been doting over at the mall! *^.^* THEN, just today~ after I had been searching EVERYWHERE for a decently priced copy of the Choko Factory Soundtrack... my dad comes home to announce that my loving mother had found a VERY well-priced copy, and beat me to it! XD!

So yeah ^_^ Now I'm here, groovin away~ Secretly planning to somehow makeup for all this overexcessive spoiling-ness o_o somehow. Secretly. Hehe ^_^

Your Power Color Is Magenta

At Your Highest:

You energize yourself and push others to suceed.

At Your Lowest:

You feel frustrated and totally overwhelmed.

In Love:

You are suprised by who you attract. You're a love magnet.

How You're Attractive:

Open and free spirited, people want to explore the world with you.

Your Eternal Question:

"What is my next source of inspiration?"

What's Your Power Color?

You Are Vanilla Ice Cream

Your personality is anything but "vanilla" You're a risk taker, who's up for anything new.
You go well with anyone and fit into any situation.
You are most compatible with rocky road ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

You Are a Glam Rocker!

You put the "show" in rock show with your larger than life self.
No doubt, you are all about making good music...
But what really gets you going is having an over the top show.
Glitter, costumes, and wild hair are your thing - with some rock thrown in!

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

You Were Actually Born Under:

Delicate, timid, and attractive - sometimes you really do act like a bunny.
You're very compassionate and protective of those you love, sometimes too protective.
Your home is really your castle, and you make sure your home is comfortable and well furnished.
You don't like to argue - and you prefer a quiet, peaceful life.

You are most compatible with a Goat or a Pig.

You Should Have Been Born Under:

You've got a ton of energy - and need plenty of room to roam.
You tend to follow your whims, and it's hard for you to stick to one thing.
Specific jobs, loves, and friends are always changing and never a part of your life for long.
Very intuitive, you tend to know what people are thinking before they say a word.

You are most compatible with a Dog or Tiger.

What Year Were You Born Under?

silent_distain @ 2005-07-14T18:15:00

2005-07-15T01:16:14Z

YAY! I finally got my haircut, and Choko Factory is coming out TOMORROW! XDD!!!

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